Coming Out as a Masturbator
I am a gay male, and I came out at age 20 back in college. It was a great revelation to realize who I was (I really knew when I was 12), that I love men, and being able to tell family and friends this part of me was such a relief.
Coming out as a masturbator is a different story. I have always loved my cock, pleasuring myself and enjoying both the build to orgasm, the orgasm itself, and most intensely the edge where you hover just on the edge of orgasm. However, telling people that this is the sex that you 100% truly love is tough. For non-masturbators it is difficult to understand just what all this means. I am chronically masturbating often, where I must bring my penis over and over to that edge for sometimes hours at a time. I came to this realization that this is who I am some time in my late 20′s when I mastered edging and felt less guilt about my nature, and now even proud that this is who I am. Fuck ya I’m a MASTURBATOR!
Finally admitting this to people has been even more difficult than coming out as a gay man. It has taken me years to “come out” little by little to my partner of 17 years that I am a masturbator. This part of me, my true sexual identity, is so close to me and misunderstood by so many people that letting on to people is downright scary because rejection and misconceptions are rampant with people who don’t practice masturbation as I do. Truthfully it feels like only other masturbators get just what this means to be chronic about penis. It can bring me to such a state of ecstasy like really nothing else can. Regular “gay sex” (whatever that means – oral? anal? quick jo in the shower?) has little interest to me. I am always trying to reach that ecstatic state and standard gay sex over a 30 minute period is not satisfactory.
Anyhow, back to coming out as a masturbator…..my partner is aware of my love for bate, and allows me to jack as long as I care to. It doesn’t mean he understands, but it is who I am and he has finally accepted it (after some definite rocky parts with 6 months living apart). As for friends, I often joke about how much I love to masturbate, and it is all a good joke, but if they only knew. Of course family has no idea nor will I ever let on. Some things are best kept in the closet like that.
But on here, on this blog I am coming out – I AM A MASTURBATOR! Hell ya!